Isolation
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
Well, Jason won't be meeting me when I'm in KL. He just said it was one of his friend's birthday and they are going out to celebrate. So I guess I'll be alone just like those times that were behind me. Sometimes isolation could be a good matter for it will not hinder ones freedom of movement and freedom of thinking. Fortunately, I've trained myself for times like these for many years. It was quite tough at the beginning and I nearly went mad but as time comes to pass, I persevered from days to weeks, from weeks to months, from months to years, doing things that I love or hate alone without the opinion and hindrance of others. I felt like I knew myself more than ever. I felt my optimum performance could only unleash itself when no other souls join my party and through that, I also gained another advantage; that was my rationality and judgment has been sharpen dramatically. I operated better when left alone. I dare people to challenge the very words I'm uttering now that not many people will emerge out the way I did, from many people's experiences, prolonged exposure towards isolation or seclusion may go hand in hand with depression or even anxiety, they just couldn't stand being alone. Sometimes they would even become over paranoid till the point whereby they have to be kept for close observation in a ward from the metal institution. It's a skill not easily obtained and cut out for everyone. Even with the frequent silence that I've lived with for years, at times my mind would tend to sidetracked but after I've regained my composure, I told myself, "Happy or not, at least you are being the real you. Take it or leave it." Guess I'll be there enjoying the sights and sounds in KL alone like a carefree bird soaring a limitless skies. Gees, come to think of it, I've got to get a map pretty soon as I'll be handicapped with my friend cum tour guide gone. Adios!
dictator*s thoughts at 12:11 AM
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